Epiphany: God, me and Essays.ph

How do you begin your steps in finding your place in this world?

I heard God said, “Let go,” but I was too afraid to. It was too dark and not at all silent. There are people I couldn’t see but I know, if I fall, they’ll see me and I’ll be ashamed.

“Let go,” God said. But I couldn’t jump to what’s unseen below.

Then God sighed and said, “Alright then.” God provided some light. Somehow, I gained courage to let go.

I had been writing since I was 12… but not really. Really haven’t written something major and haven’t really gotten major good feedback. Yet, whatever I do, however I venture to other things that might work for me, I still find myself going back to writing. I should write, I told myself.

I found Essays.ph, looking for freelance web-content writers.

No JOB?
Not satisfied with your salary?
Want to work in the comforts of your own home?
Desperate to write with your flexible time?
Want to earn more with a part time job?

I thought I should give it a try. It’s purely web-based so I won’t see my boss’ grimace if I didn’t do a good job. I won’t hear disappointments under a professional criticism. I thought this should be safe ground for me to try and test the waters.

I applied online and answered some questions. Then there’s the essay exam wherein I had to write an article and incorporate some keywords in it. I thought long and hard. This is it, I told myself. It’s time to prove something to myself. I can do this.

I made it! Haha!

That was only the tip of the iceberg.

First assignment for Essays.ph, I had to do 5 articles, 500 words each of my own choice of topic. I felt how rusty I was. I stared into a blank Microsoft Word document with only the title playing over and over again in my mind. I had all the information I gathered but where should I start?

“Let go,” God said, “Stop thinking too much and just let go.”

With one deep breath, words grew to life at my fingertips – words that I needed to chop, throw, slice, grind, put a little bit of spice and when they satisfied my senses, I submitted.

It’s been several months since I first clicked submit.

It was the coolest part-time job that I have ever done. Not only that I improved in web-content writing but the job got a few perks too. I can choose not to get any assignment if I get too busy with my full-time job. I can also choose the topic that is most familiar to me so writing the assignments are easier. The payment is good and cash-out is easy.

I didn’t hear my editor’s disappointments but I garnered reminders that only pushed me to improve. I learned with time and experience. Although faced with some difficulties and time constraints, I was encouraged.

I now write for one of the most popular websites in the Philippines. I’ve been writing and since then, the urge to continue searching for my place in this world has not visited me for a long time. I’m happy.

God said, “Let go,” and I did.

I’m home.